The blog of frogs

recognizing the moment.

2009-07-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

Setting the difference between what you do, and what those around you do.

It takes more of yourself to take ownership of who you are and what you do. So when times are good you should reciprocate, as best you can, how you feel into your work, or those around you. When things happen that aren't good... I have to internalize it. I have to over think everything in my head and get it out of my system, so to speak. Move on and be positive as best and as fast as you can. You can't bring the energy down around you or productivity or overall production value will fall.

It works. I'm feeling better about today. The image of a performer clumping to a pile on the ground on stage because a flying winch brake broke is fresh in my head and still bothering me. However; because our performer was already kneeling towards the ground in her final flying position, her descent to a pile however unexpected, did not hurt her. Also, according to our technical director; this is an issue with the nodes in the controller box. Nothing we could have done, seen, or inspected would have stopped this from happening.

Lucky stars will be counted when i can see them through this light pollution, or when i stay up a little later and head to the geocaching secret spot i found today. either way. still glad to be here in Hershey. the sweetest place on earth...

best of luck and peace n love
-drewfus

hershey love

2009-07-08T10:58:00.000-07:00

I figured out that i don't want to pursue my wants and desires.

Someone has to need me...

your last living memory...before you die.

2008-12-28T01:03:00.000-08:00

After taking my beloved philosophy class that begot this particular blog, i started to loose faith; as it were, in blind faith.

i still don't go so far as to say that religion is wacky, but absolute undying and unquestioning blind faith in any sort of teaching is totally absurd.

However to say i zero percent accept blind faith as reasonable, i have to re-question my stance on the end of the world.
see
mayan types believe that on december the 21st 2012 the world will come to an end.
christian types believe the world may already be coming to an end.

so to believe myan or christian tradition of the end of the world is to accept blind faith.

Now i love a good party and there probably wasn't about to be a better one planned for the end of the world than 2012,,,but i have to resign to the fact that a massive 2012-end of theworld party is not going to happen.

warning-drunken blog p[ost approaching

2008-12-18T01:49:00.000-08:00

Recollecting with ole jasper I had to question my previous stance on certain heart temptress'. I am really struggling (as is ole jasper) on what to say to her. He shouldn't have (as a friend) gotten me thinking like this. Like for some magical moment she's available and i'm around. The truth is it happened like that one time, and she wasn't actually available...

not that me and jaspers stories are any alike, but they share feelings and similarities between otherwise crazy ladies.

Should i have told her how my heart felt?
yes.
Should i have put myself on the line in whatever conflict was araising?
yes.
Should i have just not given a shit like i have for the majority of the past?
yes.

Should i wear my heart on the sleeve from now on???
.......

i still love terry.

So I am a...

2008-10-16T21:01:00.000-07:00

taking time away from my sound project by remembering a stoner fact a friend of mine reminded me of. "ya know God said, 'Let the land produce vegetation: seed bearing plants and trees and yadda yadda you see."

maybe the act of smoking pot is a big deal because that isn't 'God's' real intent for it... so cook it! get high... and if you happen to be a rigger; make some kick ass hemp rope.

The next bigger question is; What is the bigger joke? That God is cool with seed bearing plants like pot, which get ME high, or... That I don't believe in blind faith, thus making it immoral to smoke pot.

So what's the deal? (follow up question)

the impending sense of doom and/or disaster

2008-09-07T13:41:00.000-07:00

August 2008
profit and loss evaluation

Week 1
-8 teeth
+30 vicodin
+1 warped perception of everything for 7 days

Week 2
-1 heart for a lady
-1 decent friendship
+4 fillings

Week 3
+2 fillings
-1 tree in backyard due to fay
+1st account of water in our house
(worst damage in 20 years)

Week 4
-1 position as drummer for split tone for a "2 week" cycle
(here's where i get screwed)
-$280 for 3 gigs
-any dank from here on till i have a job
-3 trustworthy friends
+2 supporters of Andrew
+1 last semester of school
+2 successful attempt at wakeboarding
+1 injured kneed from a kick ass slipnslide party.

I mean i'll admit i've been lucky as a fish for a couple years with my band gig but i really wasn't expecting such an abrupt and hidden end to that career. i guess i was due to get shit on for a month straight. I'm not trying to complain about it too hard. Yes i agree its bullshit, no i didn't expect friends to act in such a rash way concerning my primary employment and substantial income but really it is laughable...
I've shared a few chuckles about it. Oh well hopefully i can move onto respectable employment with union calls here shortly.

onto september though all of jacksonville has been blessed with monumentally great seasonal surf. funny though, yesterday i rolled over the tail of my loving longboard after parking it precariously underneath my truck. that was kind of stupid on my part, but as much fun as i've had in 2 days of surf it was way worth it.

this concludes the August 2008 profit and loss evaluation

psychology

2008-08-31T11:43:00.000-07:00

I believe that i am prone to disappointment in other human beings.

Unrequited love

2008-08-10T20:57:00.000-07:00

I'll give Douglas Anderson as much credit as they deserve for teaching me the definition outright. Its a hard concept to wrap your head around in high school but at the time i thought i understood. I did. I was right. Both times.

Not even that the love was unrequited; far from the truth actually. The love the way i wanted and saw it, was though. Thats what hurts. As some human beings we are prone to project how we feel and what we want into startlingly close lines that sometimes get blurred, disregarded or otherwise just ignored. Then when the EPA finally recognizes and calls out the error...

who's to blame?

there are now two people who can bring me to tears by their presence simply being or not being associated with me. I hope this time its not as dire as the last but either way i WILL feel loved by enough to keep with it.

this is too much emotion for me to deal with on a vicodin-post gig mind "allow me to vacate this place forget this face and forever chill"

i'll be hanging out here...haviing some real fun

splittone love

thoughts of a VICODIN mind..

2008-08-09T00:30:00.000-07:00

. nothing is really all that bad. to be perfectly honest my days have been productive relaxing and enjoyable. I also just saw a commercial advertising the "Pickens Plan" a goal that promises to meet our electric needs by wind power to the amount of twenty percent. reasonable and agreeable I say. the point in the commercial that sparked this blog however was seeing the sweetest pickup I've seen of late an '07 and onward Chevy silvarado.

I profess to know something about cars. I have this deep seeded obsession with that which is automotive. on any level in any form. I promise that one of these pickups suited with available active fuel management systems is the compromise we as wanting to be green make for the greater southeastern contractor, who relies on this type of vehicle for his daily earnings and taxpaying's which proliferate and expand our society how we please.

The idea is why not bank on our outrageous highway driving. I mean people are starting to slow down out there, but lets face it. we pass enough air around our vehicles that it should make sense to build a hybrid wind powered vehicle. right?

some of this is legit right
?

all the VC
-drewfus

Caught in...

2008-07-26T00:02:00.000-07:00

..limbo it felt like.

Done with a production i didn't think i could work that hard on. basically done with the other i could care less about. No one around me and nothing more to do. i was in limbo. It's a weird place to feel like because i didn't know how to feel. i'm coming around this morning, but it's still weird.

you HAVE to have heart

2008-07-21T22:13:00.000-07:00

and surprisingly enough i may have learned such a concept through fccj's High School Summer Musical Theatre Experience (it is an experience let me tell you) Damn yankees has by coincidence also furthered my disposition of running into and disliking some real yankee pricks. joking aside it has been an enjoyable production thus far. your normal out right bullshit still happens, but i've been taught by the best to understand and deal with.

as deck audio for the show my hassles are limited. i am not forced to slave next to plentiful middle and high schoolers under dim blue or no light in confusing scene change operations. no. i tape some mic's onto faces and make sure the kids wireless pack's are tucked under costume. nice...

circumstantially again i find myself WITH the time to think about what my heart is saying. dwelling on the riffs and rhythms we as our band Split Tone have developed in recent days in preparation for our second step at an established joint. Freebird is going to be an experience i believe. one i have my heart set on.

a stunning revelation...

2008-07-07T21:44:00.000-07:00

that is leaving me perplexed and a little troubled.

in an important discussion pertaining to matters of my life over the course of hopefully the next several years, we were each (comrades) called out on our vices. This matter passed with a correct assumption or two made and we as a group left feeling that now as a group we were taking steps forward to facilitate the group.

thats not what troubled me. that came on the same exit ramp ive taken for the past five years. the realization that my biggest (and possibly only) vice is the one thing i strive away from more than most guys in my general circumstances.

Always on my mind and i am always playing to one or another, there or not. staying on my mind and keeping me from any tangible thoughts. I don't complain with the peace the absence brings. i deal with far less than my group mates on similar matters.

New leafs have obviously been turned and we are all barreling, staggering, three-quarter steam ahead to our goal six months from now. maybe new leafs will be turned and vices unclamped as well? why not?

all the music
-drewfus

Blog 5 Why should we be moral?

2008-06-16T17:10:00.000-07:00

The question posed in the book is why should we act morally. It isn't something many people think about so rather than ask the question no one has a ready answer for i ask
why ARE we moral, that is human morallity comes from some source and i want to know what it is.

My view for this question is that our morality is a part of the social reasoning our brain computes every second that we need it. This takes a step away from the traditional belief that are morals are religious standards that we have learned from our parents our place of worship and ultimately from a higher being of holiness. This also agrees strongly with the theory of evolution and survival of the fittest.

Blog 3

2008-05-29T14:39:00.000-07:00

This video debates the idea of christian morality, and the morality we typically think of as coming from any god's commandments. I like the example he uses to question his theist friends about their morality, and how he talks about the evolution of humans and social animals, and the development of their ability to reason, and act cooperatively though morally. I also agree with his view on obeying orders as a bad moral stance.

Blog 2

2008-05-28T19:26:00.000-07:00

Why should we be moral?

It's an interesting question by itself and one most humans seem to have their own specific views on. Morality, defined by Answers.com breaks into four distinct ways of looking at the concept
1. The quality of being in accord with right or good conduct.
2. A system of ideas of right and wrong conduct; christian/religious morality
3. virtuous conduct
4. A rule or lesson in moral conduct
They provide interesting directions in which to look at morality, but they generally tend to agree with the same concept of right and wrong though not through the same eyes.

One thing that intrigues me about this question isn't why we should be, but rather why we are moral. Jean Decety a neuroscientist at the University of Chicago said "Being able to recognize -- even experience vicariously -- what another creature is going through was an important leap in the evolution of social behavior. And it is only a short step from this awareness to many human notions of right and wrong."
I pretty much grew up living by christian/religious moral standards but have never really put thought into the fact that i have moral standards.

Hume's moral theory which is simply that how we act morally towards one individual is at least recognized by a third individual. This starts to suggest how our actions towards individuals don't just affect ourselves or the specific individual but those around you and in turn society as a whole. Once we get that far, the answer to the original question starts to become clear, and starts to agree with the social contract side of things.
Again this is something that had rarely ever crossed my mind and certainly never in the context of morality. Interestingly enough Hume's theories follow after theories of his predecessors that started to make the vague association of moral reasoning to sensory perception which we know now to be related.

The debate over free will and Why should we be moral

2008-05-18T15:03:00.000-07:00

The debate:
The idea of free will is an intriguing question to me and i'm sure a lot of people out there. Free will is a concept that seems to be in our heads from the day we're born. I've always just assumed we as humans have free will. From what i've skimmed in problems from philosophy it turns out that there are a few contradictions and opinions to work through before we can understand free will. It's convenient that i chose these two topics because free will is related very closely to moral responsibility according to the internet encyclopedia of philosophy.

The question:
The question of morality is something people can relate or think they can relate to. For people raised as a christian, the idea of morality is just a fact of life for the most part. For the most part i tend to act on a level headed set of morals that satisfies people most of the time. I don't usually question my actions morally, but maybe after reading more of the aforementioned chapter i can gauge myself on morality. This issue like The debate has several convincing arguments going in either direction of the point.

i guess we will see thursday.

video

2008-05-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

Welcome!

2008-05-08T08:20:00.000-07:00

The blog of frogs. A curious name no doubt, but does it really mean anything? No not at all, i just felt like finding a clever name for my blog and that's as good as it gets. I'm not even sure what this is for. I've heard rumors that we will be writing about our favorite chapter. Initially i thought we'd use this space to debate and talk over our life philosophy.

AH! so our first post is 'what is philosophy?' fair enough...

the study of thought is the first thing i can think of.
defined by wikipedia as the discipline concerned with questions of how one should live, what sorts of things exist, the nature of knowledge, and the principles of reasoning.

those are satisfying answers for me. till later good vibes..