your last living memory...before you die.

After taking my beloved philosophy class that begot this particular blog, i started to loose faith; as it were, in blind faith.

i still don't go so far as to say that religion is wacky, but absolute undying and unquestioning blind faith in any sort of teaching is totally absurd.

However to say i zero percent accept blind faith as reasonable, i have to re-question my stance on the end of the world.
see
mayan types believe that on december the 21st 2012 the world will come to an end.
christian types believe the world may already be coming to an end.

so to believe myan or christian tradition of the end of the world is to accept blind faith.

Now i love a good party and there probably wasn't about to be a better one planned for the end of the world than 2012,,,but i have to resign to the fact that a massive 2012-end of theworld party is not going to happen.

**warning-drunken blog p[ost approaching**

Recollecting with ole jasper I had to question my previous stance on certain heart temptress'. I am really struggling (as is ole jasper) on what to say to her. He shouldn't have (as a friend) gotten me thinking like this. Like for some magical moment she's available and i'm around. The truth is it happened like that one time, and she wasn't actually available...

not that me and jaspers stories are any alike, but they share feelings and similarities between otherwise crazy ladies.

Should i have told her how my heart felt?
yes.
Should i have put myself on the line in whatever conflict was araising?
yes.
Should i have just not given a shit like i have for the majority of the past?
yes.

Should i wear my heart on the sleeve from now on???
.......




i still love terry.