Caught in...

..limbo it felt like.

Done with a production i didn't think i could work that hard on. basically done with the other i could care less about. No one around me and nothing more to do. i was in limbo. It's a weird place to feel like because i didn't know how to feel. i'm coming around this morning, but it's still weird.

you HAVE to have heart

and surprisingly enough i may have learned such a concept through fccj's High School Summer Musical Theatre Experience (it is an experience let me tell you) Damn yankees has by coincidence also furthered my disposition of running into and disliking some real yankee pricks. joking aside it has been an enjoyable production thus far. your normal out right bullshit still happens, but i've been taught by the best to understand and deal with.

as deck audio for the show my hassles are limited. i am not forced to slave next to plentiful middle and high schoolers under dim blue or no light in confusing scene change operations. no. i tape some mic's onto faces and make sure the kids wireless pack's are tucked under costume. nice...

circumstantially again i find myself WITH the time to think about what my heart is saying. dwelling on the riffs and rhythms we as our band Split Tone have developed in recent days in preparation for our second step at an established joint. Freebird is going to be an experience i believe. one i have my heart set on.

a stunning revelation...

that is leaving me perplexed and a little troubled.

in an important discussion pertaining to matters of my life over the course of hopefully the next several years, we were each (comrades) called out on our vices. This matter passed with a correct assumption or two made and we as a group left feeling that now as a group we were taking steps forward to facilitate the group.

thats not what troubled me. that came on the same exit ramp ive taken for the past five years. the realization that my biggest (and possibly only) vice is the one thing i strive away from more than most guys in my general circumstances.

Always on my mind and i am always playing to one or another, there or not. staying on my mind and keeping me from any tangible thoughts. I don't complain with the peace the absence brings. i deal with far less than my group mates on similar matters.

New leafs have obviously been turned and we are all barreling, staggering, three-quarter steam ahead to our goal six months from now. maybe new leafs will be turned and vices unclamped as well? why not?


all the music
-drewfus